Kesedihan Melanda....~

I don't know why...But today seems not right at all...I'm sleepy and now I'm feeling angry...Why is everything didn't go as I want?Ok...Maybe I am to demand...Maybe I am just thinking of myself...Ok....I dun know but my heart was hurt right now...It's bleeding.....

My sister...She's clash with her bf...Well, act I dun know whether they are couple or not...But still sangat melukakan hati apabila tahu yang mereka not together anymore...I'm trying to be cool...But sangat sis-sia...I'm crying in the bus while I am standing...!!!Ya Allah, kenapa hati aku yang tersentuh?Kenapa hati aku yang sakit dan sedih?

In Relationship..It's not easy as friendship...Once your friend hurt you, you will get the true friend...But if you lost your partner...it's not easy to get THE NEW THE ONE...OK, I know right now maybe I'm not rationable...But it's really heartbreaking to see a sweet relationship end just like that...

Believe me...Although your trying so hard to look cool but everyone know that you are not....Perhubungan yang dah bertahan untuk setahun sangat bernilai kerana setahun bukan masa yang sekejap...Banyak yang ditempuhi, kenapa tak boleh sabar????Kenapa nak buat keputusan terburu-buru?

OK...I'm not professional anymore...I'm not in the good mood...I am really sad...Maybe I should not bother...But I know it's your own right to make decision in your own life...Take care and I hope you will not regret it.....~

SleepyHead And EatingHead....~

Wake up in the morning...Feeling so sleepy...Haih...Tak nak pergi kelas...Tak nak pergi kelas...My class start at 9.30 a.m and now its already 8.40 and I'm still selubung with my selimut...Haiyaa...Malasnya....Xiera, Ingat mak abah kat rumah...Nanti mereka kecewa... Ok, from mak and abah...

I wake up lazily and go to the class....Smile Dear...You have to bring the best for your own life....Haiyaa...Seminar???Boring....Takpe2 demi menjaga nama siswa/siswi negara..I pay all my attention to this seminar...

I met my sis today...She's a little bit chubby now...Oh, Dear...You just enter here about 3 weeks and now your weight gain...You go girl...Don't try be like your comey sister...Hakhak...Having a chat and I ate for the first time today...The menu?Nasi la of course...


Den, going to class Sovereignty and Globalization...Haiyaa...So damn Sleepy...I can't open my eyes...I need to close my eyes...I da berangan-angan di katil....Den I ask my teman tapi mesra I nak balik den he said...JOM...Wihoo!!!!

Da sampai asrama...I tiba-tiba teringat my nasi tomato...Rumate makan waktu I tengah puasa now I dream of it...Next destination...Konfem la to gerai nasi tomato...But it's not as delicious as I imagine...Maybe actually I'm not that hungry but I gatal-gatal nak makan jugak...Haiyaa...

Boleh tak, tengah-tengah makan...I saw something that make me uncomfortable...Well...my perut already buncit...I think I'm getting buncit....Haih...Who's To Blame??

Of course la...ME,MYSELF AND I....~

First Day...~

Today...The air was silent...The place was cold ever..
It's just me or the place are really cold?
I look at his face...He didn't want to look at my face...
Yeah...I know I'm make you mad....And maybe you won't ever want to talk to me...
Ok...I'm the one to blame....

You know it's sad to know that we end up like this...
I know you can't forgot whatever that happen last night...
I swear, it's bad thing happen last night..And I hope we can be Ok...
Maybe it's just my dream and I hope you felt that too....

A Singing Sad Song......~

"Kata hati merayu aku pergi
Meninggalkan dirimu tapi ku tak terdaya
Mengapa kasih, harus ku alami?
Setelah aku korban segala-galanya
Sanggupku harungi hidup bersama dirimu
Meninggalkan semua yang aku cintai

Jika kau kekasih senangkanlah hidupku
Jangan biar aku begini
Hidupku dalam kerunsingan kasih
Jika kau kekasih yang menyayangi aku
Harus kau mengerti hatiku
Itu hanya apa yang ku impikan
Bilakah kau akan mengerti"

Ok..I'm not a perfect girl for you...I'm not the one that always pleased your...And I know you are really sweet...You always had your other life to back up you...And I know...You wanted the best for your life....Good Luck in everything....I pray for your happiness...You are always in my heart although maybe we are not meant to be....

I'm Losing Half Of Myself....~

Do you ever felt that you are not belong to that place?
Do you ever felt like there are no place that you can rely to?
Do you ever felt that you want to cry until there is no more tears in your eyes?
Do you ever felt that you are not who you are
And then suddenly all of your life seems to be dark??
Do you ever felt like your heart is empty although there are plenty of people?

Sometimes it's hard for me to do what that I should do...
Sometimes it's totally to hard for me to smile and pretend that is nothing that can hurt me... Sometimes...It's really hard for me to let it go...
Because I felt that I already lost him.............

Drama King...~

Ok2...Don't Judge a book with its cover...Ok...Tak sesuai...Let's olah it...Don't judge a man with his skins on...Hakhak...Don't ever think that a very very silent people will do nothing....Hakhak...

You such a sweet person Dear...Although you are trying so hard and you have to fake it...But still you are a really a sweet person....You have a lot of your friend and I know its not easy to entertain them...

Believe me...I'm always in your shoes...Walaupun kasut you size 9 and me only 5....Hakhak....
Jangan bagi orang lain sakit jantung...Danger tau...Walau apa-apa pun...Seriously lawak...
Mesti semua orang tak sabar-sabar nak attend your kenduri...Entah-entaha ada yang dah tempah baju...Kesian la de...

Never mind...Actually I'm a little bit concern about myself...Hati sudah goyah la Dear...Please don't try to do it again..I'm scared I wouldn't have the courage to handle it...Although I know it just a prank.....

Possesive???

Dr Badriya...Well...I think you know your student very very well...Hakhak...I miss you a lot..And then...tengah seronok sembang-sembang, Dr Badriya you gave me one title (perhaps)...that make me proud...Possesive?Well...Yeah...I am a bit possesive... It's a good thing for me right?...Yeah Yeah I know...It's not a good thing because we show how tidak bersihnya hatinya Xiera ini....Malu de...

Then...This my own dear fwend...Actually my teman tapi mesra...Just smile whenever Dr Badriya said anything about kejelesan...Well,Dear you should cover me...Not pretend to be so innocent until others know that I am da cemburu type...Keseganan melanda arinie...


I don't know why...I love my dear...But I do think if I trust my dear 100 % I will cry a lot afterward...I'm not gonna risk my life...Ok...I'm Exaggerate It...But I think its for myself....You know I'm a girl...Once I love someone I will give everything as long as I can give as much as I can to be a good lover...Wah, So jiwang de...

I need a lifesaver...Seorang Arjuna for myself...A wonderful person who understand me...I know I demand a lot....I know I'm always wanted the best but I'm not always be the best for you...You are a good person for me...And actually you good to everyone...Dats why la I so cemburu with you...

But Thanks so much dear...By standing straight when I da tergelincir...Sikit lagi nak jatuh...Hakhak...Malu lagi ini...Hikhik....

Guilty....~

Hate this feeling…
Am I the one to be blame?...
What’s wrong with me now???
Kenapa semua orang suka ikut kepala masing-masing?

Lalala~

Buhsan…Pagi-pagi lagi mood dah swing…
Jap…Ada orang keysah ke?Hakhak…
Maybe right now, I should search for a new hobby…
Hmm…interesting…
Trying my hardest to make my world become wonderful!!!

Starting A New Life.....

Hello There...
Well, here I am once again...
I am not totally a real me in this blog...
But I really hope that you will always be with me, Xiera...
To share everything...What I felt...What happen to me...
As long as you there...I will try to smile as much as I can...